blessings in disguise.

the past 16 months has been the best experience of my life.
this thing called university that grabs you by the throat is only as good as you make it so make sure you fight back.
make sure you pick the brain of every professor you're handed;
they are the ultimate experiment.
your fellow students, they'll be the first to slit your throat for a job in this industry, and you know that. and that's why you have to remember to learn that little bit more, go that extra mile, and promise yourself that end result. you know yourself better than anybody, and if you want to keep knowing yourself then you're going to have to do yourself.
i don't mean literally have sex. with yourself. i mean be you and be your dreams and goals.
be curious, always curiouser, and love every minute.
not only every minute you spend with others but every minute you spend alone.
because when you love yourself, you can love others, and they will love you back.

there was a time when i couldn't fully love myself because of someone else.
someone who thought they had figured me out, yet spent no time getting to know me.
someone who thought they were getting to know me, yet just couldn't figure me out.
i have flaws. and flaws don't fly.
flaws bleed and grow and heal and sometimes flaws are the very thing that sets someone apart.
leave me alone in a corner for hours and I'll come out with a story about how the floors meet the walls and the walls meet the ceiling and the ceiling meets the rest of the corners and the corners are what keep the walls together so they can surround the floor.
you could send me to an institution or you could send me a letter in the mail. i don't care.
there's always been one thing I've needed, and it's me.

so when me went to university 16 short months ago, me met Charlie.
he wasn't Charlie then but today he's got angels and so that makes him Charlie;
our Charlie.
i don't need a lot of friends to keep me happy or busy.
i need a lot of busy and happy to keep my friends.
Charlie and his other two angels; my angels, are in this thing with me day in and day out.
this thing called university has deactivated our snooze buttons, kicked our asses, and shaken us awake. there is no flaw in the world that could stop us. and you know why?
because there are no flaws.
everybody is learning, making mistakes. fixing mistakes, making promises. setting goals and setting examples.
we ended up in the same place at the same time so we know that something went right along the way. we're here for the same reason, and we all know why.
and it's so cliche and it's so stupid
but blessings in disguise is what we were for each other; what we are.
and until we've finished our business, the four of us are all in this
Charlie, his angels, and I