i'll be back in a little while

i believe that the only way you can be happy
is if i walk away completely
so that you can find someone who deserves
and appreciates your love
i'm sorry i'm weird

i'll figure it out one day

the quiet things that no one ever hears

well i'm young, but that doesnt make me stupid.

how far do you go to save yourself from exhaustion?

when you get too caught up in a cause,
you become the problem itself.
there needs to be a balance somewhere.

for anybody that is listening to what is going on out there..
this is for you.
i havent quite figured out what it is that you need to hear
but when i do, you'll know.
there's a lot more to me than what you see on any given day
but today, i'm exhausted.

how far should i go to save myself?

one year+one month+one day

life kicks you around sometimes
it scares you and it beats you up
but there's one day when you realize
you're not just a survivor
you're a fighter
you're tougher than anything life throws your way
and you are.

passion's messy

as far as i know, this is it.
it may never be like this again, not for us.
the only thing we can know is today,
and even this we are unsure of.
somedays i worry i waste this.
somedays i don't fight like i should.
somedays this is great.
what i'm saying is,
do something great today,
and tomorrow, and everyday.
because you are here, don't waste this.

blurry but beautiful

it's right there.
right in front of you.
open your eyes.
i'm sick and tired of guessing and checking
why can't things be black or white?
appreciation could be reached if we had to earn our senses.
like a privilege on the other side of the street
the sign says walk but somebody runs the red light
lets face it:

we live and we try.

the four agreements

BE IMPECCABLE WITH YOUR WORDS:
speak with integrity. say only what you mean.
avoid using the word to speak against yourself
or to gossip about others. use the power of your
word in the direction of truth and love.

DONT TAKE ANYTHING PERSONALLY:
nothing others do is because of you. what others
say and do is a projection of their own reality,
their own dream. when you are immune to the
opinions and actions of others, you wont be the
victim of needless suffering.

DONT MAKE ASSUMPTIONS:
find the courage to ask questions and to express
what you really want. communicate with others as
clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings,
sadness, and drama.

ALWAYS DO YOUR BEST:
your best is going to change from moment to moment;
it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick.
under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will
avoid self-judgement, self-abuse, and regret.

in pursuit of happiness

two kinds of people that i face each day:
those who want to be there, yet you push them away
and the ones who dont want to be there, yet you run to them

but sometimes, if you're lucky enough, there's that kind of person that you lean towards
and they do the unexpected
they actually lean towards you, too

i just want to stress how crucial it is to pay attention to the people around you
because some want to be where they are - others dont
some want to care and others could care less
i am surrounded by people who constantly remind me that they're here for me and that they care
and these people dont even have to tell me

but you know i'm stubborn, so i'm going to run to the ones that might not want to be there anyways.
sometimes you've got to run
just to make sure that they know you're here for them