smile and the earth stands still

it was beautiful, whereever we were
i dont know why there were so many of us there
with our families
even dillen was sitting at our table. well i only saw the back of his head
the carducci's were behind us
and i think the hindemith's were to our right
and then there was a kid. a boy. he was wearing a dress
he must have been only twelve - thirteen at the most
but everybody understood
i wanted it to be italy
it was warm and we were all together
talking
smiling
laughing
together
she came up to me and told me that he needed to tell me something
i didnt know whether to be excited or nervous
i was excited
i was nervous
he came over and he sat me down
he grabbed my hands
"i care about you - but i'm 6 ft and you're a bit too short for me."
i dont remember what i was feeling but i just got up and walked away
where could he be?
i walked or ran frantic
through a beautiful building
i swear the floor was marble
i think it might have been someone's house
what's for dinner?
and then there he was on the rocks by the ocean
and i told him
it was sunny and the warmth filled my cheeks
i told him and i was crying
he was by the ocean and i cried
and then i woke up
9:36?
no.
Daylight Savings.
8:36
i walked to the bathroom

i was crying