if only...

we get sensitive when we don't get our way; when someone isn't doing things the way that we would necessarily do them, or have them done. as time goes on we realize that people are not out there, living their lives to impress us. People don't wake up in the morning to make others happy. but wait a second - why not? we cannot fight another person's battles, nor can we take on another person's responsibilities. there is no reason for us to defend another person's faults, or even inquire into another person's affairs. we live our lives for us. how many times have you seen another person intentionally cause pain or endanger someone else? was it for good reason? probably not.
we're in it for ourselves. that's why we see people leaving the scene of accidents and texting while driving and cutting others off. there is no good reason. there is no enjoyment in these things. there is nothing other than one thought and one thought only.
if only we were in it for each other.
practice makes perfect, that's what they say. and since this life is unique to all of us, it too takes practice to make perfect. if we don't appreciate our life it's not anyone's fault. if we don't appreciate our life it may be because we are greedy or ignorant, and sometimes we all are. but we can change this. we can become less greedy and more aware. but it takes practice.
today we are in constant anticipation of the next best thing. iPhone 5 then 5s. iPad then iPad mini. we are no longer expected to commit or devote ourselves to anything because we know that there will be something new around the corner. we don't practice being loyal.
one thing that we can do, however is practice being alive. living and breathing are only the beginning. this is our one shot to take any opportunity that comes our way; any possible experience, and make it our own. there's no way we can control our lives, but we can make them special and memorable if we face them head-on.
we can make them special by avoiding the if only's and the what if's. 
learning about who we are is equally as important about learning how our earth rotates.
but seeking out who we are is far more important than seeking out the table of elements.
once you find yourself you're likely to stop wishing that others were different.
once you find yourself if only shouldn't exist.

Easter on 4/20 and growing balls

i think a lot of people; young people especially, are just scared. they're scared to admit that they like doing things cautiously, or that they like sleeping next to another breathing body. today is so much about, 'the next iPhone' and 'the newest night club' and 'the hottest trend'. young people are scared to admit they'd rather stay home on a friday night instead of joining the crew for an all-night adventure. they get sucked into thinking the only way they can fit in is by being there, doing it and then talking about it. but there's a lot more to living wild and free.

wild is waking up and going for a walk before the sun is fully in the sky.
wild is making guacamole with habanero peppers - or whatever the hottest ones are called.
free like barefoot in the backyard, watering the garden.
free like finally finding the sock from last month's mysterious load of laundry.

this world has taken many years to perfect.

young people need to grow some balls.

it's a sad day when young people get together, have a few drinks, and drink a few too many. it's a sad day when young people drink and drive. it's a sad day when you wake up to the news: five people stabbed and killed at an end-of-school house party. it's a sad day when you know one of the victims.
young people don't understand how vulnerable they really are. we get so caught up in believing that we're just young and restless that we fail to remember we're inexperienced and immature. we laugh when someone jokes about skin colour. we dance around pain that we inflict on others. we call each other, 'gay' and 'retarded' and 'useless'. and stupid is as stupid does. and maybe that doesn't fit here at all but how can you be so cruel in a world that sends you curve balls every day?

wake up young people. smell the roses, that's what they say. remember to think before you act and speak your piece. try to remember that this life is yours and it gets shorter by the hour. try to remember there are others like you around.
i'm not telling you to be something you're not but for your sake you should try and be the best version of yourself. because we know you don't know who you are just yet.

be wild and tell yourself that you're a little scared to grow up. be free and grow in every direction possible.

the world has taken many years to perfect.

young people need to grow some balls.