let the ball drop

december 31st is the 365th day of the year
well there's something that i've never said out loud before
though i've known it all along

the proper behaviour all through the holiday season is to be drunk.
this drunkenness culminates on New Year's Eve when you get so drunk you ...
which is why, my friends, it is important to look back on all of the days before
because lets face it - you're never going to remember that 365th day of the year

today, i'm alive and well
i have seen so much in the past 364 days
but there's so much more to see
there are so many more 365 days

cheers to a New Year!
and another chance for us to get it right.

i will not dwell on the past for it is not in my grasp

the steering wheel was that night, though
in the heat of the moment you're not sure what level of high you are
in the rush of those last few seconds that you felt before it all stopped
everything was spinning
was it?
i dont think i'll ever be able to explain
what did i write on that piece of paper?
caution: trembling hands
too many questions that i dont remember
thank you
you were so strong for me

shy guy

can we please talk about your jacket?
courderoy. why are you so adorable?
and when you told me, you used the word thoroughly
so glad to know now
a little more than before
i think i'd like to move there, too
pausing to take it all in
a breath of newer fresh air
happy to be here
pleased to meet you.

you say you like the way i think

the people that want to stick it out with you
will know what to do when the time comes

and the ones that aren't willing to compromise, wont
they wont get it - but then again, maybe they never did

state of mind

can we talk about how i feel about you?
you're confusing and kind
you're a perfect that's all your own
but you're not here for me
and i guess i need to stop wanting you to be here

and then there's you, who's been more than good to me
for so long, and for so many strange reasons
it's been almost a year since the day that i realized
how important you are to my life

you've got this head on your shoulders
that is filled with unspoken thoughts
depths that i am not strong enough to reach
it's not my place, and that's okay
i miss you a little too; maybe more, maybe not

take your life and really hold it in your hands
take a long look, please
i knew you once, and you were far better than the person that i see today
do not ruin your future, or your now for that matter
slowly, and quietly, you are less and less

you're new and exciting to me
and you have a story that i would like to hear
i like your shoes
and my smile lasted the rest of the day
simply and honestly

maturity is learning to live the paradox

paradoxes are beautiful in their being difficult to understand

we have to let go to have.
if we insist on holding on, we lose what we want.
when i say i am angry, i no longer feel angry.