dear dumb diary:

i am now addicted to halls

dear doctor:

i quit smoking. it hurts to swallow and i cough until i dry heave.
i can taste the blood and just keep swallowing it.

Many people find that they cough more when they quit smoking.
But this is a temporary problem.

Your bronchial tubes are lined with millions of microscopic hairs (cilia).
Normally, these hairs sweep irritants and germs out of your airways.
But tobacco smoke temporarily paralyzes the cilia.
When you quit smoking, the cilia start to regenerate and repair themselves,
which results in coughing.

Coughing may last a couple of weeks or months — until the cilia are fully recovered.
To relieve coughing, try sipping water or sucking on cough drops.
See your doctor if coughing persists longer than eight weeks or if coughing brings up sputum or blood or disturbs your sleep.

giddy up

if you're not too high up on your horse to care, here's why:
you talk to people as if they aren't on your level
don't get me wrong, you're a good looking kid
you drive a nice car and you have worked hard for it, too
i guess it takes some kind of dimension to admit the escape of stocking shelves
i don't go looking for new friends very often
and for some reason i want to be your friend
but then i think about talking to you
and i think i realized right this second
that you dont know how to talk to women

time capsule

i will always love you and i'm not really sure why
you don't talk to me too often; whenever you do it's the same topic as last time
we dont see each other and if we do you're always too far away or too busy
i guess it's the whole time capsule concept
my love for you can not be released
it can not be set free
i guess i'll just keep it to myself

two many

for the longest time i was convinced that boys were the ultimate friends
i mean, they never have drama
if they have a problem with one another they fix it in the alley
nobody says anything when they eat and make a mess
or when they spit on the sidewalk
baggy means comfortable, not slobby
and all of these things really add up to something not so complex
though i'd still like to know why boys are so confusing.

i'm pretty sure that they are only nice to you when they want something

that makes sense, doesn't it?

for as long as i can remember i have been friends with more guys than girls

that's just how it's been

i think it's better

except when you want a boyfriend

then you've either got too many to choose from

or too many that get in the way

i'm disgusting

i finally washed the sweater from may long
it has been exactly three months

i'm falling apart, i'm barely breathing

i'm sorry that i'm not the most promising friend
i'm sorry that you have to struggle to keep my friendship
i'm sorry that i'm selfish and rude
i'm sorry that i dont think before saying every little thing
i'm sorry that i have the worst memory
i'm sorry that i don't have the answers to your problems
i'm sorry that i'm not who you wish i would be
i could fight but i will not change.

pablo picasso

everything you can imagine is real.

beating around the right bushes

there is so much that i would love to say to you
i'm really not sure where i would start
but then again, did i ever really know where to start with you?
in your opinion, can someone that you loved stop being worth it?
define: worth it
you know there was a point where i wanted it as much as you did
but there is a difference between caring for someone and showing it
and caring for someone and showing the opposite
oh, but it always takes two
so the answer is yes, then
someone you loved can stop being worth it
just like her
and maybe just like me
because you gave up on her four years ago
and if you're okay with that, then i have nothing left to say
for right now, anyways
but the question now is,
are you okay with giving up on me?

true crime

http://www.newsweek.com/id/209936/page/1

friday, july 31

don't let this summer pass you by
even if you are not great at summers
do this one

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