Anuptaphobia.

one of the most powerful things we can do is

love ourselves.

yeah it has been said over and over again by the preachers the mothers the teachers the friends and television and magazines and medical professionals.

and why wouldn't we?

yet we are so taken aback; so utterly rocked by emotions that we are often willing to send our love out to any Tom Dick or Harry. what makes us so sure that Tom will feel the same way for the same amount of time? and will Harry wake up in the morning and look at you smiling because half your face is lit by the sun peaking through the window blinds while the other half remains peaceful in the shadows? which Dick are you really getting the hots for?

nothing.

no.

n/a.

it has taken me many years to love myself this much so tell me, why would i turn around and start all over again on somebody else? can i please have ten or twelve or even 13 more years to myself? Anuptaphobia. it's almost as much a fear of being single as it is a fear of not finding someone to love forever. if that's what people are really afraid of then they must not pay very much attention to themselves.

it's OK...check yourself out once in a while.

turn around in the mirror and see what everybody behind you sees. close your eyes for some seconds and then look at yourself again and pretend that you're the only person in the world capable of finding love but you cannot choose who the love is. pretend you really do have Anuptaphobia and pretend that somebody just came over and said you can have the love that is waiting in this taxi or you can spread the love to the entire rest of the population.

you wouldn't lose the love you can give.

you wouldn't lose the love you can find, either.

you wouldn't be losing anything.

unless you chose the love in the cab.

if i'm single today, i'll probably be single tomorrow and most likely the day after as well.

but if i love myself today and tomorrow then the day after i should love myself even more.

i think the more we love ourselves, the better chances we have of finding love.

i think we'll probably find it when we're not looking for it.

and i think too much.

but what i don't think about is the fear of being single.

Anuptaphobia.

it's almost as much a fear of being single as it is a fear of being alone.

and why would we fear being alone when that's exactly how we've come and how we'll go?