what the hell happened...

to blogger?

it used to be quite simple to navigate through; post a new entry, publish, edit, etc.

i was uninformed of the changes and this is what annoys me the most.

there should have been an option.

onto other news.. blogging has become a thing of the backburner for me.

looking for pieces of this puzzling life of mine is exhausting enough as it is.

more so now than ever; (because of the layout changes and transition to white...) i have been avoiding the blog.

I've also been avoiding the blog because there is a very large gap between the things i want to type and the things i don't want to type and I've been stuck in this gap for quite some time without assistance and not so much as a rope of any kind. (where is everybody?)

maybe they have a full-time job or a child or spring courses. maybe they really have nothing to do but are just extremely talented at hiding it. maybe not. maybe i'm crazy.

and i am.

well today i spent part of the afternoon with someone who didn't have a rope but they did have a face.

a very handsome, yet familiar face it was.

and the voice was just as familiar.

mostly it was talking. it was lovely and refreshing and heartbreaking and sweet.

it was so sweet, i almost didn't deserve it.

but because i am so thankful to have this face in my life,

i did.

i'm struggling for words now...(since when?) i know.

i also know that i don't know a lot, which is why there's a struggle.

we know nothing, essentially...that's why we're here.

to learn. anything. as much as humanly possible.

to challenge. everything. as much as we can stand.

i suppose that's why I've come back to "blog" (complain) about the changes of blogger.

because no matter how tough things get; no matter how challenging -

there's always a lesson. there's always something to be learned.

things change - shit - they change all the time; every minute; every day.

and there's only so much avoiding you can do.

there's only so long you can stand back from the challenge.

so here i am.

blogger-ing...on this shitty new layout which i'm sure others find conveniently refreshing and effective.

shit, i never really understood a whole lot about computers.

i like the coffee chat. the face-to-face. the brilliant teeth and tongue action.

it's a beautiful thing.

thank you for activating your brain cells and reading this; (if you did) -

sincerely yours,

another citizen just looking for the cure.