the morning news

step back for a minute and take the time to love yourself

love yourself for everything that you're worth because you

are worth it all.

since day one back in september, it has been thrilling-
this reality that i have become part of
because that's what i wanted, right?
i wanted to be rid of the casualties of high school drama
i needed to find myself something bigger
i had to see myself in the world -and i had to believe it all, too
believe it possible

my mind runs constantly and it always has but now
i can feel it and it feels heavier than ever before
so i get out of bed in the morning and i make a coffee and watch the news or something even more practical like the weather network
slowly but surely i am making my way through all of this
and i know it because i'm starting to think about bigger things
heavier things
and i will get so excited that all i can manage to do is
smile
to hear someone ask why is obviously normal
but if you truely know me then you'll know what smiling means

so now here i am
one-quarter.
twenty-five percent.
halfway to being halfway there.

i have been falling together since september
suddenly and simply
and passionately
i'm not saying that everything is exactly how i want it to be
but it's pretty damn close

because i took a step back for just a minute
and i stopped trying to please myself-
and i started to take myself seriously
i started to take all of this seriously
because everything that i was surrounded by right in that very minute
was worth it all

and now?
now that i'm thrilled to get out of bed
now that i'm heading in the direction of my dreams
well, i guess we'll see

but i've never been so sure of myself.