i was only right 4 times

almost everybody that i love believes in god
but of course, i can't believe what everybody else believes
and it is inevitable that my grandparents and i will argue about it
my grandpa stayed out of it this time though
but my grandma just doesn't understand that i realize WHY she believes what she does
she thinks that i do not understand the religion that i have been taught for 12 years
mary was a virgin?
please tell me that you can have a child without sex
my grandma; who has had two children, is among those that believe this
guess what?
mary lied.
what kind of almighty father sets up a trap for the first two people on earth
"you can have anything you want, except that... you see that right there? yeah, don't touch that"
and then god let the devil into the garden to speed up the process
guess what?
it was all a trap.

god does nothing
you told me yourself that god gives you two decisions: right and wrong
but it's all up to you to do the right thing
therefore: god does nothing
it is you that makes the decision
god does not inspire you
and that is why there are people who choose to murder others
because if god inspired you, and all god wants is good, then none of that would happen

i am happy that you have something to believe in, grandma
i said this over and over again
never once did i try to get you to believe what i do
yet you persistently attempted to explain to me what i already know
i only asked that you explain to me how it makes sense to believe what you do
and all you could manage was, 'because i just believe that'
i guess we're both too stubborn to take a breath
because i nearly lost my voice
i'm not sorry that i think the bible is bullshit
and i'm not sorry that i don't believe the same things that you do
after everything that god has not done for me, do you honestly expect me to?

i guess i'll just stare out the window
and guess what colour the next car that comes up the hill will be