being thankful

it's a good thing to do.

i'm reading The Celestine Prophecy

You know the story - the one about the spiritual adventure in Peru; the search for a hidden manuscript.
It's really one of those books you don't want to put down because this guy is travelling around the rocky and narrow winding roads in Peru, he's being driven by a Priest because he was separated by the first man who saved him from being nearly killed.
You see - this manuscript is being protected by the Peruvian government and the more people who hear about it; Scientists, Philosophers, your average American journalist, the more trouble. There are unwanted people in their territory and the government is being protective. But some people believe in the manuscript and in sharing what it says.
The manuscript has eight Insights; apparently a Ninth and yet undiscovered Insight as well though I am not entirely sure since I have not finished reading the story.

I deeply want to believe in the first few Insights the manuscript tells of.
The First Insight speaks about the "chance coincidences" we all tend to experience in our lives. Have you ever seen someone you know you have seen before but can't quite remember what about? This could mean the two of you have unfinished business. This is more than mere coincidence.
The Second Insight regards our desire to seek out life's purpose.
The Third Insight is all about the energy of living things and being able to see that energy surround beings, and project your own energy towards them.
The Fourth Insight touches on the competition to gain and control energy of others.
Competition for energy underlies all conflicts.
The Fifth Insight explains the key to overcoming conflict in the world (the competition for energy). A mystical experience, which is available to everyone, will reveal that once you open yourself up to being filled with love, you can build your own energy,
The Sixth Insight details the four "control dramas" which all humans because of their upbringing are susceptible to. Intimidators steal energy from others by threat. Interrogators steal it by judging and questioning. Aloof people attract energy by being coy and Poor Me's make us feel guilty and responsible - sometimes even without having done or said a thing. Once we become aware of our own control drama we can focus on answering the question. which is: how to make of your life a higher-level synthesis of your parents' lives?

I think reading this story opens up a whole new part of your brain that thinks and feels exclusively about this energy. Every living thing is made of energy and being able to nurture and cultivate the energy will help you on your spiritual journey towards life's great purpose. Share yourself as you go out into this world and the people who are meant to cross your path, will. People need people.
People also need stories to explain and to excite.
The Celestine Prophecy is one story explaining why.

i lost my job

This is the third time i'll attempt writing this. 

You can't explain yourself at the time but you would have liked to say thanks for the opportunity.

I loved my job and I worked hard. it's not easy to remember exactly why I did the things I did or said the things I did but I hope I didn't get fired because I knew too much. I'm not stupid but I can say stupid things, we all do.

When do we feel we love our job best? 

When it doesn't feel like work; when the trust is enough to approach them with anything

But employee satisfaction is not earned lightly...least of all when an owner is disconnected.

I need dolla, dolla,

dolla, that's what I need, 

and if I shared with you my story 

would you share your dolla with me?