absolute disaster. utter disbelief.

and then there was everything else before and after.

acceptance

i've accepted the reality of running into people that aren't in your first
circle of influence
people who are in your life because of people who are
no longer in your life
if you're still with me, clap your hands.
when you run into them, you lose your mental stability with small talk
you mumble. you hesitate. you become awkward.
because you're not sure if they know whatever it is you are hoping they dont know
clap again.
you'll walk away from that person with questions running through your mind
hearing the voice enter your world is like falling down a hole.
you instantly lose concentration
your world is all of a sudden forced into a portal of memories
and there is nothing better than truly accepting it
which i am proud to say that i have
seeing them is the utmost favourite.
their immaturity and their inexperience
have reached the same ground as their daily knowledge intake
what more could you ask for?
well... you sit here, feeling the world around you take off
feeling your world erupt into new opportunities and new experiences
you realize that human life is fascinating.
learning is easy, it's growing up that's the hard part
shit happens. accept it. take it all and run.

MADDER than a HATTER

this is a revolution
this is a turn around
this is the part where i break down

storytelling

earlier this morning, i decided to live my day for a little girl
a little girl who is a decade younger than i am; a tenfold braver
i don't know this girl personally, but her voice melted my heart
her intellect is far beyond her years
to be selfish, i wondered if i appeared as smart as she does when i was her age because she is phenomenal
she's vibrant and optimistic and grounded
there are so many people that i hope to meet in my life time
and if i had the chance to meet with her, i would stand honoured

her hair was falling out and she insisted on taking advantage of the entire situation by going to the most posh hair salon in town.
"it's ok mom, at least you dont have to pay for a blowdry!"

her spirit has shown me that there are so many small pieces of this world
that i take for granted every day.
listening to one little girl's story changed the way that i now look at the cards that i'm dealt

laugh often
listen intently
and live, passionately

madison scott was ten years old when she was diagnosed with lymphoblastic leukemia.
she is thirteen years old today.
she is still alive.
and cancer-free.